Kouha stands in shock for a moment while his mind tries to catch up with what happened. And then he just...collapses to his knees, like a puppet with its strings cut. He doesn't scream, doesn't curse, doesn't show any reaction at all other than staring blankly forward as tears start to run down his cheeks.
He failed. He's worthless, he failed, he blew his only chance and now everyone in his world is going to die because of what a massive fuck-up he is. Not just his family, not just his country, but his entire world because he couldn't get this one damn thing right. Fighting's the only thing in his entire life that he's ever been able to do well, and he couldn't even last long enough to make any difference other than get an innocent girl killed.
He should have never asked to be saved. What the hell had he been thinking? He doesn't even know why he got the offer when it should have been Kouen, Koumei, anyone else because they wouldn't have fucked up as badly as he did, would have never even been killed in the first place. Even with so many lives depending on him, even when miraculously getting another chance to save them, he still couldn't do anything.
He's completely worthless, and now billions of people are going to die because of it. He doesn't know how he could have ever thought he was good enough in the first place.]
MMM WHATCHA SAAAAY
Kouha stands in shock for a moment while his mind tries to catch up with what happened. And then he just...collapses to his knees, like a puppet with its strings cut. He doesn't scream, doesn't curse, doesn't show any reaction at all other than staring blankly forward as tears start to run down his cheeks.
He failed. He's worthless, he failed, he blew his only chance and now everyone in his world is going to die because of what a massive fuck-up he is. Not just his family, not just his country, but his entire world because he couldn't get this one damn thing right. Fighting's the only thing in his entire life that he's ever been able to do well, and he couldn't even last long enough to make any difference other than get an innocent girl killed.
He should have never asked to be saved. What the hell had he been thinking? He doesn't even know why he got the offer when it should have been Kouen, Koumei, anyone else because they wouldn't have fucked up as badly as he did, would have never even been killed in the first place. Even with so many lives depending on him, even when miraculously getting another chance to save them, he still couldn't do anything.
He's completely worthless, and now billions of people are going to die because of it. He doesn't know how he could have ever thought he was good enough in the first place.]